Terry Evans – What comes after change?

As I have said before, these last three years I have been through a very intense process of change, trying to understand what the intention of change is. It has almost been like knowing that I have to walk in a certain direction, without knowing where it would take me, or what would manifest when that process was over. The spirit world spoke to me a lot about change. My impatience or need to understand would sometimes confuse the issue. However, I have noticed in the last two months how the result of this change is just popping up, showing itself spontaneously. I find myself setting new lines in a positive way, as I never have done before. I also dare challenge more and believe in myself even more. Suddenly opportunities and offers are coming that I not only find challenging, but interesting. On an emotional level I feel stronger and more at peace. I am even daring to think more outside of the box, and in so doing spirit are helping me realise potential and resource that I hitherto have not recognised.

As I have looked behind me, I have seen the shadows of the past quickly fading. One could almost say that thelight that is now before me is obscuring the shadows, and as I cross the bridge and goes toward meeting a new phase I now realise that it means a completely new beginning. What has happened to me, I ask. I am seeing family and friends in a different light. Simultaneously I am realising that I am also gaining a new understanding of spirit and my relationship to them. At times I understand them better than ever, and I am learning to navigate their world in a different way. The interesting thing is that people around me are also beginning to respond to me in a completely different manner.

I stated on my Facebook page that I would be visiting a friend in Stockholm to celebrate his birthday, but what I did not say was that this friend actually is part of a family that I have just joined, a family of ordinary, nice and down to earth people who have welcomed me intotheir fold unconditionally. To be shown this kind of love and consideration is a real gift. It was so much fun to be with them.

So on a private level new doors have opened. It is almost as if this process has reached fruition over these last few years. There was a point to all the soul-searching and the obstacles that at the time, seemingly, just stood in my way. But without them I would not have had to stop and think. In hindsight I can see that many of those obstacles were created by my own mind-set that could have prevented the change that was necessary to move forward.

Now the desert within me once again blooms. Without the monsoon, when skies are grey and the rain falls, the ground would have become arid and no longer fertile. Now I see so many new possibilities. Hopefully my vision of life a head and of myself has expanded. So, when the forest was cleared adjacent to the school it reminded me of how it has been at times these last few years; things had to be removed in order for me to see ahead.

The process of change always brings new opportunities, a new life and a new way of seeing and feeling. Within my mind and my heart I have found a new place, a place where I can quietly retreat from the world when it is necessary. I am not so afraid of coming out from my cave and just accept it as it is, so I am happy and I am realising more and more that there are new things all around me offering me new bounty. It is almost as if I can hear a voice saying: These things we offer is what you worked for.

By the way, change for me is also where I have to become a pioneer, without that spirit or attitude I would stop walking into the unknown. My pioneering spirit is an integral part of me. And remember; when you pioneer maybe you have to take ten pathways before you take the right path.

What positive and beautiful things has change offered you as you have come out of your wilderness?